Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Just Mom

JaiseAnn runs happily to greet her dad at the door every day. She greets my mom for Sunday dinner with such enthusiasm it would make the softest heart melt. She laughs for my brother almost effortlessly and kisses his girlfriend with little to no prompting.

Me? I don't get those over the top greetings and I don't get kisses without quite a bit of begging most days. And some days I get laughs and smiles easily and other days I have to work really hard.  And you know what? That makes me really happy.

just a mom

While I'm sure it makes Zach feel amazing to walk through the door to such a happy greeting, I'm glad that I don't get that. Because Zach is being "greeted' and I rarely need to be. I'm there. Every day. All day. I'm just mom. I'm the regular and the normal. Everyone else in my daughter's life is exciting! They are a change from the normal a change from me and that's fun for her. And while that might make some people sad, I feel beyond blessed to be just mom.

I'm grateful that our days together are her normal. That she knows nothing else--so the change is what excites her. I'm grateful that my face is the face she sees the most and that my voice is the one she hears the most. 

When I really stop to think about it, it's such an incredible responsibility. For her to spend as much time with me as she does, puts a heavy responsibility on me--to teach her, to be an example, to love her, to discipline her. It may not be the exciting. It may not be quick feet running to the door or a loud and enthusiastic, "HI!" when she sees me, but it is the most constant thing in her life.  I love knowing that she wakes up each day expecting me. Expecting our routines and boring old mom. I love it. It is the greatest blessing in my life to be just mom.

Do you ever feel like you're just_____ to someone in your life? How do you feel about that? 

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